in 10 minuts i will go and try to bring my friend back to this world from his imaginary realities, he stucks every night in... this is something hardly understandable for me, acceptable of course, but i can't imagine, that dream would be a such strong power, that will drag me that hard, that my own controlling brainstations will not work... well, i'm not honest with myself - in the middle of the night i have so deep sleep, that i don't hear anything or reacting anyhow... but... i guess, that there is still motivation to wake up is not strong enough, because you need to struggle whole day and survive and do stupid unpleasant things... if smb will just whisper him: surfing... that could be different


so. yesterday. yesterday was a full-food day and no sports. brrr.

• breakfast. i've made a salad: feldsalat with carrots and walnuts, like a day before, with a bit of limejuice and this readymade dressing, took a piece of roasted kurstenbrot. after i also ate the whole 'wecker mit rosinen', what is very tasty with a small glass of balck coffee.
• lunch. pretty strange: i've made tomatosoup out of the can... which suppose to be interesting and italien with basil and gin, but it was just a soup out of a can. so i put also some limejuice in it.. and fresh tomatos and tofu...
• in the evening was a dinner with friends, that was delicious. menu:
  1. quiche with leek and goatcheese. 2. roasted beef with mashed potatos, beens and zukini in cream-sauce with cedar nuts, red sauce with mushrooms and whatever. 3. brownie with vanilla ice-cream and berry-sauce. oh yeh, oh yeh.

i don't really understand, if it's okay to eat that much. but i guess that today i should just drink water. beacuse on this calories i could live not one, but two days, i guess.