still this grey cold reality is around. it's really a bit stucking in the time. especially, when it's sunday and behind the window only rare sleepy people, serving their dogs. milk reality, smoke light, lethargic sleep. i even hear snore. oh, it's from the next room.

yesterday i was nearly good girl. tried to eat not that much, was somehow the whole day in my imaginary projects and now i understood, that i need an intellectual diet. now i'm using my good imagination to replace interest in snacks by interest of occupations. and that works!

• in the morning was coffee as usual and i had early hunger, so there were two corn-wraps with italien dried tomatos and pickles and tofu. yeh, not that much healthy, but o-kay.
• than i lost my interest in the food finally! before i went out, i made a small ricepaper-roll with fresh tomato and tofu as well, and insteasd of going to bauhaus, turned in direction of luang-pro-bang (laotian restaurant), where my friend with his friend, who is also my friend, were sitting one-on-one with their hunger. in the case that everything there took about an hour or more to prepare two plates of food and boiled rice with fried spring-rolls in between... the descision not to oder there food was really right. so a spoon of rice there.
• after this torture i had already pretty big appetite for fresh  ricepaper-rolls, so i bought some more vegies, came home and made three wonderful rolls with zukini, beensprouts, broccoli, tomatos, tofu with limejuice, soyasauce and peanuts. ah, that was great. as a desert was orange with coffee and i felt myself as usual increatible elegant.
• that would be great all, if i would be the end, bit i'm a weak one... because in two hours i ate this delicious bread with raisens and candied fruits with  a small cup of coffee, that's why after it was so hard to make my head free of thoughts before going to bed.

well, i need to admit, that i still proud of myself. that's really right direction for stopping to be so manic concentrated on the food.